For the last couple years I have had an issue with my voice which has progressively gotten worse, and its probably the biggest cause of anxiety/social anxiety for me at this point.
The problem is that my voice simply isn't "stable". It changes all the time and usually isn't my "real" voice. Its almost as if I have little control over how it comes out. I can sometimes speak and have my voice feel comfortable and natural - not deep but not high. When this is happening my confidence skyrockets (or could it be vica-versa?) because I feel so much more at ease speaking. Typically I am very conscious of how my voice is coming out, but this just makes it worse. Often it comes out "stressed" where it sounds "forced" and out of pitch (usually too high), lacking flow, etc.
Before I start speaking I sometimes have to clear my throat as if to "get a grip" on my voice... if I don't, my first few words sometimes come out in a strange voice. So I also have to clear my throat a lot, which sucks. I definately have noticed that when I am caught off-guard, such as when someone walking by says "hi" that I don't expect, that almost all the time when I respond its in a stressed and unnatural voice.
So what is the cause of this? I think the root is probably hormonal or caused by allergies. I tested low for T a while back and I think its always been low-normal. Could low-t be causing this? I also think that I try to compensate for not having a deep voice by making mine slightly deeper, but its not like you think - very slight effort to make it deeper. The thing that might really be causing it is allergies... I have almost nonstop coughing up of flem, and frequent stuffy or runny noses along with some minor sinus issues. Could these be "squeezing" my voicebox/throat/whatever and making my voice sound funny? I'm also starting to think I could have an allergy to dairy, which I eat/drink a ton of and I heard it causes excess mucus, so I'm gonna get that tested soon.
Finally, I realize its also psychological, but its a feedback loop that I'm having trouble stopping. I think about it, which might make it come out funny, which then makes me think about it more, etc.... Help me... lol